Can you buy adult stabilisers?

So as some people may or may not be aware of I have set myself a challenge. A personal challenge but with a charitable aspect. I am going to do a charity cycle next year. I have not decided what cycle or which charity(suggestions welcome). Because for me, the biggest challenge is the first step.
And this first and probably the most important step is to learn to ride a bike. Without this step the challenge will fail, obviously. So at the age of 25 I am going to learn to ride a bike. I will try to answer most of the questions that you may be thinking; like 'Are you serious?' or 'Are you for real?' or 'You're joking, right?' 
To answer them; Yes,Yes and No. 
But its not as simple as; I just haven't learnt or my childhood was some dark,dreary, can't afford a bike sort of ordeal. The problem with me is that I'm afraid. I genuinely am scared of the concept of riding a bike. And not just bikes but being in control of any vehicle. Public transport and my own two feet have stood the test of time for me.
It may sound silly, I am aware of this, but it is real. 

So hence why deciding to do a charity cycle is such a challenge. Not only must I get get fit and train for a cycle but I must face what seems to be my only fear. 
Why now though? I say why not, everyone needs a challenge. Do something that scares you and if the end goal is to benefit others then the push to do so is greater. 
So my oldest friends, the friends I hung out with when we were young, have decided that they shall take it upon themselves to complete the task of teaching me to cycle. The reason that they are so adamant in doing so is because they have been saying they were going to teach me for years. Every year I would outright refuse it happening.
So it gives them great pleasure to be the ones to pop my stabilisers on and see me ride into the sunset. And laugh when they come off and I fall. And probably find it hilarious when I start to panic when I actually have to get on the damned bicycle. We shall be doing this on grass, with lots of padding and a box of xanax. And they want to film it.

What I have let myself in for....

(First Post) Why not so proud?

So last week was Pride in Cork City.

  It was one of the best weekends that I've spent with some amazing friends. I was proud of myself and more so the community I'm part of. We all constantly are there for support and a shoulder to cry on if needed. We all have troubles and we all need to stick together as a community.
  But this community I keep talking about isn't as supportive as my circle of friends. I don't mean to complain or rant but here we are. I expect that when I as a person go out of my house dressed how I'm comfortable  and being myself that I'd be supported. And I'm not saying I wasn't; my mother,brother and sister all came out to the parade to show that they they love and are proud of me. Many people stopped me and said I looked amazing.
  Okay wait if you're reading this and don't know me you are probably thinking; What are ya on about? Well I like going out as/being a women sometimes; not a drag queen, but i do perform, wouldn't call myself a transsexual but would call myself trans. Its complicated I know but I don't need you to understand just not judge.
  The reason I keep bringing up support, understanding, judging and all these similar themes is that one person who doesn't show you these can knock you more off course.All it takes is one negative incident. And this did happen to me. At the club the night of the pride parade a man in the club poured a pint down the back of my dress-on purpose. I know it wasn't an accident because they ran off and the friends who were with me saw him do it.
  I left the club;distraught.
  Went over to another venue where I cried to a friend. She must have superpowers because she calmed me. Every person I told was disgusted this has happened as I was. Why would you belittle a minority within a minority. It makes people think its okay if we 'do it to ourselves'. And to make it worse I found out another friend had gotten similar if not worse happen to her the same night; pint poured over her and spat at her.
IN A GAY CLUB!!!!
  Somewhere where we go and think we are in a safe environment and there are members of our own community who are as ignorant and selfish than the homophobes we are trying to show we are better than when we have pride.

  And I'm aware that it is only a few people within the community who are like this. But a few is a few too many.